Dialogue of the self, an attack on the fleeting consciousness of humanity
by Doug Jackson
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The ego plays a major role in the corruption of our consciousness. While performing daily tasks such as driving we can see how insecure people are with themselves in regards to the rest of the world. We feel as if the world is against us and out to get ahead, perhaps they are. The individual has been made king, meanwhile we all are here living together, whether or not we adhere to the commonplace law of this universe. The problem of the ego has plagued us before Caesar and Napoleon, why change now right? Every so-called proprietor of peace that was in the process of making an impact has been either exiled or executed. In this frame of mind I am near-forced to get personal, a task that I was hoping to avoid on this project. Am I able to truly observe in this disillusioned state of depression and anxiety? To observe the single snowflake as it falls in my hand, the pen filled with ink and its weight in my hand as I struggle to script as fast as I can to avoid judgment and to observe the ice-cube as it falls to its fate at room temperature, can I truly observe all of this coherently if my head is so clouded? If I can distinguish stigma from deception than perhaps but as it stands I can barely fall asleep at night without some kind of assistance. Although, I do say this in good faith: if one cannot observe the nature around them, how can they observe themselves? I suppose banging my head against the brick wall over the depression would be fruitless, what than besides the opposite is helping me in this state? As I said before, for this project of attacking the crisis of the human consciousness to be successful, I would have to get personal, otherwise it would just go over my head and I wouldn’t tap into anything worthwhile.
Hope was lost before the cross or Holocaust, They choked the horse dead with a pocket full of lead.
Dialogue of the self, an attack on the fleeting consciousness of humanity
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Belief in God is irrelevant and superstitions must be met head-on. We are here as a result of millions of years and beyond that and before the big-bang who really knows what was in existence. To say that man was created in God’s image is insulting, that would make God retarded, being that we are primitive in regards to the development of the universe. How could man be made in God’s image if all of the universe is the image of God, being life, a continuous cycle of creation and a multiverse which appears to be universe after universe and so on. Man is pig-headed and egocentric, man is a retard. Can you see what happens when my emotions run amok on my observations? It is hard to separate the two but sometimes it is necessary to engulf the self with an observation of emotions, which is after all the experience of being.
So than, what is destroying us? Poverty, disease, war, separation, greed, gluttony, hate and bigotry, (which are ultimate forms of separation) science, nuclear warfare, the unequal dispersing of energy, which should be a free entity, but is controlled, monopolized and distributed through a monetary supply. Bu the individual is the bare recipient of action and all things that are, are recipients of one’s actions, rather the lack thereof.